32 Weeks, 4 Days, 53 Days Left

So I am really up and down today...actually, the only time I was really "up" was when I had my ultrasound...got to see Jack :)

Here's a pic of his foot! Isn't it cute!!!?? This foot is ALWAYS kicking to the left of my belly button. I love it.

So here is the vent session that I need to get off my chest...

-I don't like gaining weight...I'm 147 lbs!!!! :( I feel huge!!!

-I have lots of ugly stretch marks even though I lather up with palmers cocoa butter everyday!!!

-A certain person (no names) is driving the hell out of me!

-I'm tired of being alone!!!

-and another thing, but I'm not gonna say it because it's a little too close to heart...

SOOOOO ANYWAYS....Jack weighs 4 lbs now...he's in 40th percentile for being 32 weeks, so thats not too bad... :) Yays for my growing boy :)

Crib and Nursery :)

32 Weeks, 2 Days, 55 Days Left- Second Scare

Yesterday was definitely an up and down kind of day! It was nice because I had some alone/chill time in the morning while Jim was out playing frisbee golf and then we spent the afternoon together watching Sin City and having lunch...but the whole time and all day Friday I was having pains- menstrual-like cramps, gasey pains without the gas, and then pressure and pain in my pelvis to where I'd have to double over...so there was some concern.

Now, anyone who truly knows me knows that I am stubborn as ever when it comes to going to the emergency room or even an urgent care...it's like pulling teeth, even though I know it's always worth it- either you find something or it puts your mind at ease!

So, to put our minds at ease (since this is our first baby and we have no clue what is going on), we went to the OB OR last night around 4pm. Luckily they got us right in and hooked me up the monitor and started recording the babies heart beat, movements and contractions. At first there were no contractions, only Jack going crazy on my bladder lol...but after about fifteen minutes and some hydration, I was having contractions every 3 minutes! They were small but I could definitely feel them.

They tested to see if my water broke, which I knew it didnt....but let them test anyways...then they checked if I was dialating, which I wasn't...thank goodness!! So, they gave me this medication, not sure the name of it, to stop the contractions and it worked. It made me feel real shakey and my heart race, but I've only had two contractions since 7:30 last night, so YAYS :)

Another up moment after we got home though--- Jim's mom and brother dropped off our new crib! It's SOOOO cute! I am going to post pics of that and the nursery in the next blog today :)

Thanks for listening to our little "scare #2" lol I'm so glad Jack's gonna stay in a bit longer- he needs to continue "cooking" lol.

31 Weeks, 5 Days, 59 Days left

So I'm almost 32 weeks...had my 31 weeks checkup today and it went horribly. I met with the actual doctor yet again and she said flat out (about the c-section): "No...your leg is no reason to go through major surgery...you do realize it's major surgery?" and she didn't even wait for me to answer or say anything. She acting like I was completely retarded about my own body! I wanted to kick her in the face and tell her to shove her opinion up her...anyways! I'm switching doctors. I've decided it today- after todays appointment, I don't want to see her again, let alone have her deliver my baby! She doesn't listen to anything I have to say. It's NOT just my leg...it's my leg, hip, pelvis...everything! I am truly concerned and she doesn't give my concerns the time of day because she's too busy shoving us through her line. It's ridiculous and I'm tired of it. I may be this far along but I need to see someone who will respect me as a patient and not just a number. Even if they truly suggest a natural birth- FINE!!! But listen to me first and take an interest into my past first, not just one little aspect of my life.... So, I've been doing research this afternoon and will make a couple calls tomorrow to get this ball rolling.

On a better note, our nursery is finally almost finished- well, the painting and murals are finished- thanks to our friends!!! It's beautiful!!! I will post pics later :)

I also finish my externship this coming monday- so that will be a nice stress reliever and i can just relax til the baby comes.

My baby showers are coming up as well as my maternity pictures, courtesy of my lovely cousin Andrea. I'm soooo excited! I even bought a new dress today to wear for it today! It's such a cute dress! Oh, which reminds me of another thing that pissed me off today- (the tears and emotions have all turned to anger lately lol) Jim and I went to Khols today because we had a $10 gift card to put towards any purchase and i wanted to look at the dresses...so we're checking out with this dress that I love and the cashier (who is pregnant herself, about 4 months) basically says that she hates the selection of maternity clothing at Khols and that she'll never wear anything like it...basically INSULTING the item I'm purchasing!! I know it doesn't sound like much, but she was just completely stuck-up!

Wow...okay, thats enough venting...Hope you are all having a fabulous day...I'm gonna go CHILL and watch a movie until Jim gets home for dinner :) Thanks for listening to me rant lol

Love you all!!!!

27 weeks, 7 days, 85 days left!

I had my 27 week check-up on Wednesday…went way better than I had planned. I still have the same doctor and have decided to stick with it rather than changing during my third trimester. I talked to her during this last appointment and insisted that the c-section is the best thing for me, mentally and physically. Jim and I talked to his cousin who is an orthopedic surgeon…he agreed 100%. And, I feel if prissy rich women can choose this alternative to avoid the pain of pregnancy, then I should be able to choose it just for the sake of avoiding all the risks that are involved.

So, aside from that, baby Jack is growing and kicking like crazy. I have crazy nicknames for him when he kicks too much or too hard- beast, alien baby, psycho lol. I’m sure he likes it lol. He does have his sweet moments though—like when it’s just us two—im lounging on the couch, slouched, my belly protruding upward. He’ll push outward along my belly button, then I’ll run my hand along it and he’ll do it again—and we’ll take turns doing this as if it’s some kind of blind game. I can’t see him, he can’t see me. We can only feel the love between us. It makes me tear up sometimes.

I’m in my 3^rd trimester now so that means I have doctor appointments every two weeks now…plus, I’m still seeing the specialist for ultrasounds to see how he’s growing…which I have another appointment Tuesday. I’m kinda hoping those stay at monthly appointments but we’ll see! J

24 weeks

Hey everyone,

this update is a little later than I suppose I promised on facebook...but I haven't really felt motivated. It's 6 am and I can't sleep....again. I heard and read that pregnancy insomnia is common, so I'm not necessarily worried about it. I think I won't get worried unless it continues into August because on the 9th I start my externship, basically a full-time job without pay...bummer! lol.

Anyways!! Back to Jack....

I had another appointment with my baby doctor this last Wednesday, July 20. I was 23 weeks and I FINALLY met my doctor. She seems nice enough but she completely dismissed what I wanted to talk to her about- my concerns with delivery. I wanted more reassurance and interaction than what I received. I honestly think I should have a c-section and whether it's out of fear of my hip dislocating or whatnot, I think it's legit. But, once I brought the subject up, all she had to say was: Oh, your hips have nothing to do with your delivery, your hip will be fine.

The end.

OK...well, how come everyone I know says your hips move and they spread out and whatnot? I'm so very confused what to do here because I don't want to change doctors but I feel it is definitely necessary now...plus, Jim wants to change also. We both feel like I'm just a number there-- they didn't even have in my chart that I'd had my hip replaced! It's a joke.

All drama aside, baby Jack is doing well...heartbeat was at 150, which I guess is good.

He's definitely moving a lot more lately! I absolutely love it- can't get enough of it. I'm sure all you other mommy's felt the same? I think it's the only part of pregnancy that I do enjoy...everything else sucks and I hate it lol. BUT, I do know that the end result will be more rewarding than what my body and emotions are having to go through. :)

20 Weeks, 4 Days, 137 Days Left

SO, I haven't written in awhile. A lot has been going on...we found out IT'S A BOY!! His name is going to be Jack David Smith. :)

We had a little bit of a scare my last doctor appointment...my second prenatal blood test results came back and one of the results was positive for a neural tube defect. For those of you who don't know what that is, it's basically if there is something wrong with the spine, stomach or abdomen- like if there's a whole or something- the most common type of birth defect for this defect is Spina Bifida. All my doctor would tell us (last Thursday 6/23) was that we were at risk for the baby having a defect like this and that she made us an appointment with a specialist. Well that, of course, scared me to death.

We went to see this specialist this morning and it definitely wasn't as bad as I thought it would be! We got a complete ultrasound of every aspect of his body- measuring everything from my ovaries to each valve of his heart! It was really neat-- probably took a good 45 minutes! We then had to see a genetic counselor and she was really great. She said that the max of the AFP test is 25.0 and that would be where you wouldn't be at risk for the neural tube defect...my blood test showed a 25.2~! This is fantastic news-- so it's more likely just a fluke and nothings wrong with baby. Everything on the ultrasound looked good and it's such a low number that we basically don't have anything to worry about. :) YAYS!!!